When it happens that we lose our way, that we’re curious, distracted, frightened or careless there’s something greater than our choices and actions at work. Doubt and discouragement are powerful, but redemption and restoration can overcome.
Reciting Empty Words….
I grew up in the church which means I know the chorus to countless songs that sing about how much God loves sinners and redeems their actions. The problem is when we simply recite the lyrics…and yet…that’s part of the hope that draws us back just as scriptures memorized in Sunday school and VBS.
Such verses and songs are well-worn on tracks on my heart but anyone can grow curious, especially when discouragement settles into the innermost parts of the heart.
“Everyone has a price”
Once upon a time my California hometown was a mecca for agriculture. Fertile soil, good water and farmers willing to work created an impressive system. Then, San Francisco’s prices exceeded the cost of the American Dream and pushed into our geography. As a child I literally watched houses replace vineyards and orchards…even then my ten-year-old core understood something greater was taking place. As a Realtor in my twenties I understood the profound effect even more.
Close enough to justify the commute in the name of being a home owner, the masses moved into our valley. “They” (I don’t know exactly who “they” were then or who “they” are now) offered incredible money for farmer’s land and for what we’re discussing, that’s what most matters….
Farmers began to sell land to investors and developments were erected. I recall a time in 2006 when I spoke with a farmer who harvested high producing land, the sting of his honest words, “Everyone has a price” still bring a confused pain to my heart.
I asked if his family would sell for the right price, inhaling a fleeting hope that his solid family wouldn’t sell only to face the reality of his words, “Everyone has a price”.
I’ve heard this more times than I can recount in my business affairs. I didn’t know it applied to sinners and saints alike….I’m no saint….I’m a long-shot from that…but my belief in the majesty of God, of His love for me was solidly in-tact. I never thought a sell-out was possible. What on earth could compare to being a princess at the throne of my Heavenly Father who deeply loves me?
Every business person knows a way to manipulate a scenario…. that’s why we doubt salespeople and big corporations. We wonder what they want to steal from us. The battle for our hearts is no different…there’s always a way to get someone to sell of shares…
I was no different….it just took longer than some…the drip of rejection and discouragement made the opportunity worth selling…selling the greatest fortune I’ve ever held in my hands…
I’ve sold out before, but never with heavenly dividends….my husband and I sold an investment property to learn months later of a strategy to pull our capitol out to reinvest….far too late…
That’s just the thing with dollar-and-cents-investing…..there’s a too late moment…the incredible thing about God? There’s never a “too late” to reinvest.
Last year my wandering cost me time away from the peaceful path…as I mentioned, discouragement and rejection left me for want…and in that wanting I began to wander and search for a something that would fill my heart.
After all, the church teaches that those who walk with God are filled to the brim and overflowing….until they’re not…until they’re a Peter….if you’re not current on Peter, he broke bread with Jesus, denied Him, renewed his devotion and became one of the most influential disciples.
My heart didn’t deny the Cross or leave my faith but curiosity fueled by discouragement tainted my foundation…reminiscent of the Israelites left in Aaron’s care while Moses spoke with God atop Mount Sinai. God redeems and restores, but often there’s a cost to our heart (more likely our pride).
What is your wandering costing you?